They're hugging that pride like its all there is

Hmmmm...I hope that you think of me every day. With the change of the wind, with whatever else may leave an effect. It doesnt make sense, but neither do these lives. I hope you cant put the words in the right context, that you cant understand their words, your actions. I hope you thank me. And I would say likewise. Trying not to be bitter and all that jazz. Things are changing. Try to smile. And remember what you did. Multiple times. I hope you start to see things in a different light, and you change. (I'd love to comment on what Id actually like to happen to you, but im done with negativity, at least for now) Breath in deeply, let your senses show you the way. Release the demons, and work on yourself. Hopefully history wont repeat itself, but on second thought: it probably will. SO have fun on your little cycle and try to keep others out of it.

One week of summer down. Kinda loving it. Camp next week (if I get next week, but hopefully I will. Planning to finally do this shoe shopping shenanigans (did i spell that right) with whoever this weekend. So with a smile on my face I continue to type. (I amuse myself)

I think summers going to be a good thing. A break of school, and the school people I needed so desperatly to get away from.

Oh and I had this really weird dream last night. Well a few of them lately. Like a week ago I had a dream I was at a concert/school/mall and I had to do some game show involving the tshirt wall thing at hot topic and run alot and some strange drinking game. we had to run a crazy distance, haha. But I couldnt run anymore and then we were at disney world (still running) and I was running with Karen and Diamind and Jio. But then my legs gave out and I fell and im pretty sure I broke something. So Jio had to carry me the rest of the way. Im pretty sure we lost.

Last night I was at my friend Stacys house (ghetto!! :P) and we went to some park that was convinently in her back yard but then we hopped the fence and went in her house but in some other room was a hallway with the teachers lounge with awesome vending machines. so we (stacy, nia, and i) bought icecream and met back with pau nd some other kids i met at a party and we talked about how much we enjoy eating ice cream. then we went to the flea market and bought skirts and these insane bracelets. my dad came to pick me up and we were going to meet gabi somewhere (i think it was that japanese resturant were going to next week) but it was one of those dreams where you never seem to get where you need to go and you feel like shit because you cant control anything. then i was suddenly at home because i had to change but i couldnt figure out what i wanted to wear and then i couldnt take the outfit i was already wearing off. eventually i was wearing this awesome blue shirt and the cute little skirt and i was back in the car. but it was going so slowly again. i think i just got really pissed and woke up.

enjoying my "me" time. havent talked to any of you in a week (except kayla and pau) ive decided that i am going to read every single psychology book on the reccomended list (43) maybe I will learn a bit about myself. and why every one of my dreams involve a game show or me struggling to get what i want. at least im dreaming again.