i dislike hellos because they mean were one step closer to goodbye

im kinda of confused right now. ive been recently thinking alot about what it means to be conventional. isnt that just when something works correctly, functions properly? and ive been thinking: as much as id like to be, im not a conventional person. and im constantly bringing myself down upon that thought. im really working on that, but the way i am, thats just me. i pretty much tore myself down for the longest time internally then i got bored with that. i then noticed that my blogs not that conventional either. not like annie's, or danny's, or tom's: i had no beginning. was i supposed to have a beginning, do i even care? i dont. but thats the problem. im letting all these people see a smidgen more than what they normally see, this is just an outlet, way more personal then my journals. more personal in the sense that i can make it colorful and sugarcoat things. my journals would be soo much more personal in the sense that its me, and the thoughts set to run across my head. i dont want to come across as some stupid person who writes about crap, i want to come across as me. but am i just some stupid person who writes about crap? i dont know i dont want to be. but i just want to be. corny, deep, sarcastic, slightly annoying, hyper, myself. so as my late blog beginnig/introductory thing: hi, my names jeannie.
so hows that?